So Close
i almost said it today
i could taste the words on my tongue
but i bit down hard
and chewed them up
so i wouldn’t choke
as i swallowed them down
i feel them now
in the pit of my stomach
rewriting themselves
as if
they could be forgotten
as if
i don’t think them
a hundred times a day
as if
they’re not to blame
for this pain
unfelt for so long
a longing
like none i can recall
every day
it grows
stronger
and more powerful
i am over-matched
the takedown is near
and you won’t even know
it was you
who crushed me
(April 27, 2009)
