I laid awake
until the alarm
forced open my eyes
somehow still dry
though I expect a flood
is on the way
and I’ll be drowning
for days and days
but on this day
I got up knowing
I had you
to look forward to
with your stories
and your jokes
and the way you can’t walk past me
without a little nudge or a poke
(God I fucking love that)
So I showed up
sleepless
but smiling
but you
didn’t show up at all
and then I saw
your crossed out name
just like the last song
I put on that CD I made
because I wish I could tell you
just how I fell
how much it’s killing me
how it hurts like hell
but for now
at least
I will keep it to myself
as best I can
wondering if you feel it
when I touch your hand
or if you see it in my eyes
which have turned to sand
waiting for the ocean
to rise above the land
